Relational Christianty vs. Philosophical Christianity

everybody always says that I'm so spiritual and stuff, but really I'm not, not in the relational sense of the word i mean. I really enjoy the philosophical side of Christianity, but I'm still struggling to grasp the whole relationship thing. I think that's why no one is really a professional christian, because you can never master a relationship. there are lots of so called "religious scholars", that are very academically accomplished in terms of the Bible, but i dont think anyone can ever really be superior to anyone in the Christian world